I have been having a VERY bad day. What can I tell ya? No one is going to be positive 100% of the time. Sorry, but it's just not going to happen. There are going to be those days, rare though they might be, where I lose my adorable cherub-like demeanor. Lol. THIS has been one of those days. It is the kind of day that I actually dread the most. Because for a good part of this day I felt like I was trapped inside my own head. Have you ever felt that before? Oooooooh, it is NOT a fun place to be, trust me when I tell you. One thing goes wrong, through no fault of your own. Sometimes shit just happens. Then another thing goes wrong....and another. Pretty soon you are aware that this day just isn't going to be headed your way. Yep, that's me. And then you are left alone to deal with it on your own...trapped inside your own head. You have all these crazy-ass thoughts swirling through your head. You can't focus on what you're doing. You feel yourself getting angrier and angrier...and that's the GOOD part of your day. ha ha ha. It got so bad at one point while I was at my desk at work today that I heard my trainer's voice (that happens sometimes - he has become sort of like my conscience) and he says “Get to the gym. Work off that anger. Leave it ALL on the gym floor.”

Usually that thought works out for me just fine. Today, I answered back and told the voice to mind it's own business! Well, like I said, these kinda days happen to the best of us. As I am writing this, my office is now empty and the day is just about over. I am already starting to feel better. The anger has been replaced by calm...and I am just happy that I got through this hellacious kind of day without hurting anyone. Ha ha ha. Now I will head on home for the night. Spend some quality time with the family, a little something to eat, a quick workout and a good night's sleep. It never feels like it when it is happening to you, but sometimes you just need to give yourself time to calm down and relax. Weather the storm...take its best shots...and move on as soon as you can. AAAAHHHHH.....definitely feeling better now. Staying the course is a big part of it too. I learned over the past year that no amount of excuses, bad news, tainted karma or rotten luck will make it right to change your direction. “There is no right way to do the wrong thing” I once heard somebody say. True words for sure. I managed to stick to my diet today, got my 2 mile walk in this morning too and now I can happily put this day behind me. Hopefully tomorrow is a better one...or else I just MIGHT have to hurt someone! LOL.

Thanks for checkin in....enjoy your evening. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!

Starting Weight - 225 pounds

Current Weight - 222.5 pounds

Goal Weight - 199 pounds

Total Weight Loss So Far - 2.5 pounds

Projected Date to Hit Goal Weight - September 19th, 2011