Beat Up From The Feet Up
Good GOD am I tired! This is one of those days that I used to have nightmares about. Those constant "go go go" kinda days where one thing just sort of blurs into another...and another...and another. It was also one of those days where everything that could go wrong...did. Ever feel like you are being tested? I resist using the words "messed with." For now I will stick with "being tested." But either way, sometimes I feel like someone really just wants to see how much I can take before I reach my breaking point. Never was that more apparent to me than just a few minutes ago, when after all I have been through today, I still took the time to write my blog (at 4:30 in the morning mind you). So I wrote it, read it over and then re-read it. Satisfied, I hit the upload button...and the screen went blank...yup. That was my reward for pushing myself so hard today....AAARRRRGGGHH! But at times like these I remember the words of my invaluable trainer and friend Jonathan, who always reminded me that the only two things we are truly in control of in our lives are our actions and our attitudes. So no matter how mad I get (and I was furious, trust me) I resisted the urge to take an axe to my new computer...and instead I just sucked it up and started all over again.
It was that kind of day for me all around though. Busy schedules, delayed trains (soooo not a fan of the LIRR these days), all nighters without sleep...that's pretty much me. And to tell you the truth, a part of me did want to take the night off from blogging. That same part of me was telling me that I have earned the break and no one would think any less of me for missing one little night. Maybe no one reading this would...but I would. I made myself a promise...every day...no matter what. I plan to stick with it. Another thing that Jonathan always reminded me? He would say that "everyone hears the bell, but only a few special people actually get up to answer it." I like to think that...tired or not...I am one of those people that will always answer the call. I would be lying if I said I wasn't looking forward to sleeping tomorrow night RIGHT after I get home from work though. Let's face it...I am dedicated and loyal...not insane. Ha ha ha ha. Well, I would love to sit and chat with you all day, but the sun is coming up and I have to get ready for work...all over again. Sometimes being responsible reeeaaaaally sucks! ha ha ha ha ha...have a good day (or night depending on when you read this). Make sure you make the effort to answer your own bell today...wherever it might come from.
Thanks for checkin in...
Starting Weight - 225 pounds
Current Weight - 218.5 pounds
Goal Weight - 199 pounds
Total Weight Loss So Far - 6.5 pounds
Projected Date to Hit Goal Weight - September 19th, 2011